Ever have a life-changing experience?
Like, it changes your whole perspective in a flash, and you see how things could be if you just made some modifications in your life? The kind of changes that are big and scary, but you know you'd be SO much happier if you had the guts to actually go through with it?
OK, well, it happened to me this past July with the Klamathon fire when we were evacuated for 5 days. Not only did I think our house was going to burn down, but my workshop with it, and therefore, both my businesses would literally go up in smoke. When we left, there were at least 3 helicopters flying overhead, and a supertanker banking with its lower wingtip about 30 feet above our roof. That was a HOLY CRAP moment! And yes, we could actually see the flames roaring toward our home. So, yeah, it was scary, and life-changing stuff.
As I darted into the house to pack the 'important stuff', I was stopped short by the thought, 'What's important?', 'What can't I live without?'. I realized immediately that it was all just stuff, and not important at all. I did grab boxes of photo albums, the kids' baptismal gowns hand made from the fabric of my repurposed wedding dress, and my Vitamix (I know, right? Can't live without my smoothies).
Instant paradigm shift.
Our house didn't burn down (shout out to the Colestin Rural Fire Dept...thank you, Steve Avgeris and all the rest of the firefighting heroes that saved the Colestin!), we were eventually allowed back on our property, and all was well. Everything looked the same, but I had changed. My life came into clear focus, and I knew what I wanted to do, had to do, to live my best life, 'cause this kind of thing makes you realize
you really only get once chance at life!
So, here it is: I'm closing the spa. Our last day open is August 22nd. This was not planned. It just wouldn't leave me alone, so I gave myself some time to explore this vision, and talk it over with my husband. I can see where I want to be, and the spa is not in that picture. My husband has been incredibly supportive through this process, and I love and admire him so much more for it. God has blessed me with an an amazing man (thank you Jacek)!
I had a staff meeting on July 27th, and made them an offer to keep the spa open if they would manage it as a co-operative at just the cost of the rent split among them. Maybe the idea was too radical, or the thought of taking on management duties too scary. I get it. I've been working 70 hours a week trying to manage the two businesses, with most of my time taken up with the spa. It's a heavy responsibility, and not the right choice for everyone. So, the spa as you know it is coming to an end. I have bittersweet feelings about this. I put so much of myself into it, and have lived, eaten, and breathed the spa for the last two years. But, it has also been the focus of my life to the exclusion of everything else that matters to me.
Even though that part of my business has been neglected, my online skin care sales have quadrupled in the last year, and I am starting to pick up wholesale accounts. Jacek and I are growing hemp on our organic farm so that I can formulate with my own CBD oil in the products;
Hello Farm to Face CBD skin care!
There are so many studies on the benefits of transdermal application of CBD's for things like eczema, psoriasis, and more, and I have been inundated with so much positive feedback from my customers, that I believe CBD is the future of this industry, and I want to be a part of it.
This is my vision, my dream, for the future, but I can't accomplish it while running the spa.
I realized my house didn't have to burn down for me to make a major life changing decision. But, it was now or never.
I had to do this quickly before I lost heart and started to ease back into my 'normal' routine, letting the dream fade away. The thought of working outside on the hemp farm with my husband, and spending hours and hours formulating and creating in my workshop makes me happy as a clam! Skin care is my art. Imagine an artist who is so busy managing a studio that they no longer have time to create their own art. That's how I've felt for the last two years.
Being shaken up is a good thing sometimes.
It's like waking up.
And yes, there's the smoke. This damned smoke was another facet of my decision. The spa relies on tourist foot traffic during the summers to ease it through the slow winter season. Two summers in a row of this fire and smoke, and the thought of what this winter held with the constant hussle to make up for lost business was not something I was looking forward to. I feel like a farmer who's livelihood is a crap shoot dependent on the rain. No more. I want to spend my time in my workshop creating beautiful skin care that I can ship anywhere in the country, blue skies, smoky skies...doesn't really matter. I'm happy, and I'm making other people happy, smoke be damned.
There's one last part to this. We just drove our son to Wyoming for college, which makes us empty-nesters. Not sure what that means yet, but I want the chance to find out. So, no more 70+ hour work weeks for me. It means having time to exercise, pray, and cook healthy meals again.
It means time to reconnect with my husband. Those small things that have the biggest impact on your health and happiness?
I want that.
So, what's next? I don't know. I'm one of the most organized, type 'A', gotta-have-a-plan people I know (I literally use 2 organizers, cause one just ain't enough), but I'm going with the flow this time. It's a new experience for me, and I have to say, I like it. I'm putting the future in God's hands, and trusting in that. It's liberating not being in control. I do know I'm going to put the spa up for sale, so if you know someone that might be interested, send them my way...maybe they'll keep things the same, and Zagorska Oasis will live on! If not, it was a beautiful thing, and I hope it made some of your lives better.
P.S. Some of you may be wondering what happens to your spa gift cards. No worries. If you can't make it to the spa before the 22nd, I'll honor your gift card until the end of 2018 toward the purchase of skin care products.